Sometimes I can't tell if I am a positive person or a negative person.
When I first learned the "glass half full or half empty" concept I said, "full." And I’ve always fancied myself an optimist. On the other hand, my humor revolves completely around sarcasm and I can be a bit of a complainer.
Still, I don’t think anyone would describe as a Debbie Downer. Well, at least not before I got sick. Chronic illness can make a Negative Nellie out of the biggest Pollyanna.
Occasionally, I am so drained, I don't realize the sun was shining until after it has already set. But that is not really who I want to be. Lyme disease and all, I know this life is a gift and I want to live it in a wholehearted, positive way.
So how do you find the good in chronic illness? The best and quickest path out of negativity is to count your blessings.
Whenever you find yourself seeing the negative in a situation, stop and think of 5-10 positive things to be grateful for about the situation. In other words, find the good.
Today I was having a particular down day, because I was too sick to go into work. When this happens it reminds me that I’m not the same person I once was, who never missed a single day and racked up all the sick days I'm using up now. I needed to "find the good," so here is what I came up with:
10 Things to Be Grateful for Right Now:
1. I'm grateful to have a very understanding boss and coworkers. Not everyone has flexibility in the workplace.
2. I"m grateful for the Lyme disease and chronic illness community. Before my diagnosis I felt completely alone. Once I had a Lyme diagnosis I've found a community of thousands of people struggling with many of the same issues I cope with daily.
3. I'm grateful for the support of my friends and family. They listen and allow me to talk about my illness, even when they don’t want to hear about it anymore. I have a great support network and I’m growing my network of other people with Lyme. And my dog, Scooter. Can't forget Scooter.
4. I'm grateful to have found experts and books by experts that will help me get better. There is so much information out there and I learn something new every day. Right now, I'm reading the Lyme bible, Dr. Richard Horowitz's, Why Can't I Get Better?: Solving the Mystery of Lyme & Chronic Disease . Lyme podcasts are also my new favorite thing. Shout Out to Lyme Ninja Radio.
5. I'm grateful for my Integrative Medicine Doctor and Lyme Literate Medical Doctor, both who never judge and are so knowledgeable about testing and treatment. I could’ve gone on for years as undiagnosed or misdiagnosed and they saved me from that fate and possibly saved my life.
6. I'm grateful for antibiotics, which gave me my life back. Six months ago I was struggling to function at all and now I’m slowly, but surely finding myself again. Each day I notice a symptom that has either disappeared completely or is showing up less and less.
7. I'm grateful for meditation and yoga. For the ability to have a moment to quiet the mind and focus on healing and for the series of stretches that always gives me the best back cracks in my low spine.
8. I'm even more grateful than before about all the things I love and love to do. I am so grateful that when I'm writing, blogging, or spending time on social media I completely forget about whatever pain or strange symptom I have in that moment.
9. On a lighter note, I'm grateful for the little things, like my heating pad and electric blanket that give me hours of comfort and relief. Ah, warmth. And dark chocolate, which replaces my need for glutenous or sugary desserts. Also, Epsom salts and essential oils.Lavender and peppermint oils for headaches are truly the nectar of the gods.
10. I'm grateful to be alive with the opportunity to experience all this world has to offer. I am healthy enough to travel and still do many of the things I want to do. I just have to make sure i schedule in time for rest, which I’m still working on.
Turns out I'm one lucky lady, but I already knew that. I just needed to remind myself.
Now it's your turn. In spite of your illness, what are you grateful for today?
"Trade your expectations to appreciation and the world changes instantly." - Tony Robbins
I am so grateful for the people who are willing to take the time to write about their Lyme journey and willing to share it on this blog. In this edition of The Lyme Interview we feature author, Janice Fairbairn. As we all use different modalities to heal, Janice shares about how her relationship with God, her family, and some amazing health professionals, helped her through her illness. This inspires her to write and share her stories with others. Janice is the author of four books about Lyme disease, which can be found through these links on Amazon:
Janice also authors the website Just Living Like This With Lyme with a strong message of encouragement and hope.
Religion is a deeply personal experience, especially as it relates to healing from chronic illness, so as you read this please note the views expressed belong to Janice and are not the message of Body Mind Lyme.
What is your Lyme story? How do you think you contracted Lyme and how long did it take you to get a diagnosis?
Both my kids had severe digestion and behavior issues the minute they were born and soon more seemingly unrelated health problems emerged. My life was a constant duct-taped stress ball trying to help them and maintain any normal parenting routine. My health had been fading for years, I had a miscarriage, two sick kids in my mid-thirties and I chalked it all up to that. Finally, I realized late one night as I couldn't sleep because the chest pain was so severe, that I had to do something about it. Dreams of lung cancer (I was an ex-smoker) or heart attack raced through my mind. I also had surgery on my esophagus in college to remove tissue webbing and it was very close to that area of my sternum.
A few weeks later, we went for a family walk one afternoon and I got severe chest constriction, pain and dizziness and almost passed out. My vision got "weird" and my heart rate wasn’t recovering. From ER visits, to scopes, to 6 months, losing 30 lbs and twelve doctors later that I finally received a diagnosis. The first eleven tried to give me antidepressants and blow off all the dozens of symptoms I felt. In the meantime, I had been diagnosed Sjogren's, Lupus, Hashimoto's, Glaucoma and other possible autoimmune diseases. My family doctor told me that 3 weeks of doxycycline would fix it. It nearly took my life.
I spent way too many nights racking my brain for my ground zero. I had no bulls-eye rash, I had no discernible tick bite. I spent my childhood in the woods of Missouri camping and running around barefoot. I spent my college years traveling to Europe and to the Caribbean. Who knows. I finally realized it didn’t matter where I got it. I had it. I had Lyme and nearly a dozen of its evil friends. Did they come together or accumulate over the years? Who knows. Since my kids had every single critter I had, it goes back at least 12 years or more. I let it go, no more thoughts of its origin, only its exit.
Tell us a little about yourself and what you do:
In my previous life, I was a marketing and communications executive and then a work-from-home and stay-at-home mom. I have now become a PhD in health, healing, living right and all things Lyme. My passion is to see people embrace God’s love and faithfulness by providing HOPE for their journey to healing. I love talking about health and healing to anyone who will listen. I adore my kids and how God has used our hardships to grow them into amazing young people with character and perseverance. In 2014, I released that story called My God, My Lyme and the website and blog Just Living Like This With Lyme. The website is a place to come for all those who are just "trying to live" despite their circumstances of chronic illness. Also, on Facebook.
My newest book called Finding Hope in the Panic Cloud, is available on Amazon this month. It is an emotional road-map out of panic that can descend in your life in a circumstance as cumbersome, exhausting and overwhelming as chronic illness or financial hardship, divorce, the death of a loved one or any number of other tough deals we endure in this life. The Panic Cloud can engulf and make you frozen and incapacitated or doused in fear. I walk through how to escape, survive, thrive, and endure the weight of a panic cloud from God's biblical perspective.
What are your talents and passions?
In my previous life before kids, I was a communications and marketing professional who was known for taking charge and being independent. Then after having kids, my immediate job was not just mom, but health advocate mom. I had to become an expert on all things healthy and had to do it all in uncharted territory before Whole Foods Market was mainstream. Then Lyme hit for me and we had a name for what had been plaguing the kids for years. So now, I'm an expert at cooking from scratch gluten free, organic and healthy. My talent is recovering my kids health and helping my family become fully functional and live again. Oh, and being a fierce momma bear.
My passion has become helping others heal and sharing hope. Fighting Lyme disease, we all know is uncharted territory with new treatments and information coming out all the time. I don't want anyone else to have to suffer with no answers. Even more than that, though, I don't want anyone fighting this terrible illness without hope. My belief in God and His faithfulness gave me hope. That hope was the only anchor I could hold onto to get up each day and continue to fight. Battling Lyme’s darkest days, months and years require hope with a capital H. The battle was God’s not mine alone. He gave me the strength and He healed.
What was your lowest point and how did you find your way out of it?
Before I had CCSVI surgery on my jugular veins, my lyme treatment was touch and go. The amount of intense pain I had against my heart and in my cranium was unbearable. Add that to my other varied symptoms and I just never slept and spent many nights thinking morning would never come or that my kids would find me dead in bed when they woke up. It was in those dark long nights that God spoke to me, comforted me and gave me Hope. There have been many moments, nights and weeks I which I felt impending darkness over issues with my kids also. I claimed the promises of God. I asked for strength. I asked for wisdom and guidance. I asked for provision. His answers were not always what I envisioned, but He answered each one. When I couldn't pray I asked others to. When I had no strength left I played praise music. When I thought hope was lost, God actually said, "while you're awake, let's pray for others," and so I did. One small step at a time, one day at a time with my head down and focused on Jesus and getting well.
What is the one thing that you have found most helpful in treatment?
The overarching best advice I could give is that physically, emotionally and spiritually healing must happen simultaneously. There is no true lasting physical restoration without the other two. They are dependent upon each other. In fact, the physical body has likely gotten weak over years of emotional strain and stress. Fix the root of the problem and the body will follow.
Specifically, I completely believe and give credit to the Hansa Center for Optimum Health for their natural methodologies for treating Lyme disease. Their methods are safe for those who can't tolerate antibiotics and safe for kids. They treat all three aspects of the person to help manifest complete restoration.
Thirdly, altering your lifestyle would be important. Reducing stress, changing diet, exercise, positive relationships, and or shifting careers all become fair game. Nothing is off the table if you want to get well and stay well. The new normal looks different for everyone, but for successful recoveries, life is completely different on the other side in a good way.
What do you want people to know about Lyme disease?
Lyme disease exists in hundreds of forms and its symptoms vary depending on each person afflicted. There are dozens of autoimmune disorders and other diseases misdiagnosed each and every day in the traditional allopathic world of medicine, which are really Lyme. It is the great imitator. Modern day doctors are not educated in Lyme disease and are actually swimming upstream against their patients who have it and are trying to get a diagnosis. The CDC is not our friend and with their falsehoods, the insurance industry will not come on board to acknowledge chronic Lyme or its varied treatments. If you think you have Lyme, you have to get educated and be your own advocate. You have to personally fund your own healing treatment to the tune of $50,000 per year and up. It is faster growing that AIDS, it attacks more people each year than heart disease and breast cancer, yet no one is talking about it enough. It can be defeated though. It will not win.
What are you most grateful for in your healing journey?
Doctors who listened and weren't afraid to try anything. My army of friends and family who kept praying and kept my family afloat. My warrior mommy friends that help me walk this walk on the hard days. My husband who never gave up and never left. My kids for have the tenacity and courage to fight for healing. Facebook groups and the Internet for a stream of knowledge, especially Scott Forsgren the BetterHealthGuy! Ultimately, God's faithfulness is the thing I am the most grateful for. He held me up and I survived because He provided in a hundred big ways and a million small ones.
Tell us about a person who inspires you in the Lyme community?
That is too difficult to name just one. I already mentioned how much I admire and rely on Scott Forsgren for his willingness to dedicate his life to spread Lyme knowledge and awareness. Recently, I have the utmost respect for Yolanda Foster and John Caudwell for their public vulnerability and commitment to raising awareness and making a difference. Amy B. Scher's books and work are also adding fantastic things to the Lyme community. My heart though, is in the patients and doctors at the Hansa clinic. Dr. Jernigan has pioneered an amazing anointed facility that changes lives all day long. His team of doctors are groundbreaking, hard working and open minded to anything cutting edge that gets success. They are relentless. My favorite people are the Lyme warriors I meet; the hearts and faith and hope of the people holding on to a thread for themselves or their kids to beat this beast. My husband and I now own a long term stay house in Wichita just for Lyme patients that come from all over the country and world to get treatment at Hansa. We get the pleasure to meet and serve this vast array of Lyme warriors that still love, laugh and find hope in the darkest places. They bless me immensely.
Please share a mantra or quote that inspires you?
Never give up, there is hope. God will never leave or forsake you.
Favorite scriptures – Proverbs 2:1-5 and Psalm 27:13-14
I'm always looking for new stories and perspectives on Lyme disease, healing, and wellness. If you are interested in being featured on The Lyme Interview, head on over to my Connect page.
"Every one of us gets through the tough times because somebody is there, standing in the gap to close it for us." - Oprah Winfrey
I'm no cook; therefore, it has taken me a long time to adjust to a clean diet. And I mean a loooong time. Full disclosure, I'm still working on it. As a former vegetarian, I never learned how to cook meat and it doesn't come easy to me. Also, due to my chronic fatigue, I don't typically have the energy to cook from scratch using only whole foods. Again, workin' on it. I know it is important and I will get there eventually, but in the meantime I try to get my nutrients in the simplest manner possible.
Enter smoothies. If there is one thing I make like a pro, it's smoothies. Throwing a bunch of healthy stuff in a Vitamix and turning it on, no problem. I got this.
Over time I developed my go-to smoothie that I make every morning. I start my day on a nutritional high note to ensure I get greens, healthy fats, and antioxidants daily. Plus it tastes delicious
This recipe can be made Paleo/AIP if you omit the kefir. I add it, because Lyme disease patients can benefit from probiotics to offset the antibiotics. It can be made vegan if you also omit the collagen. The collagen helps me make up for eating a very limited amount of meat.
Nutrition Packed Go-To Every Day Smoothie Recipe:
-1 cup water
-½ cup kefir (omit if Paleo/AIP, vegan)
-1 tablespoon Grass-Fed Collagen (omit if vegan)
-Handful of greens
-1 tablespoon raw cacao or raw carob powder
-½ small banana (frozen)
-¼ avocado (frozen)
-1 cup frozen organic berries (any kind, but I prefer a mix of blueberries, raspberries, and strawberries)
Throw it all in a Vitamix or high-speed blender until well blended. In Vitamix: level 10 for about 1 minute. Voila. This is the model I have. It is by far my favorite kitchen appliance:
-Each week I halve 4 small bananas and quarter 2 large avocados. Then, I put them in freezer bags and keep in the freezer. It's enough for a week's worth of smoothies.
-If you want to use fresh fruit and veggies simply add ice instead of water.
I use Gotham Greens, which are locally and sustainably grown in Chicago and New York. At Whole Foods they cost the same as other organic greens, but stay fresher longer, because they are grown right here. You can buy these greens in the Midwest or the New York Tri-State area.
I use this Grass-Fed Collagen:
I use this carob powder:
And I use this cacao powder:
Leave a comment if you give it a try or discover any delicious adjustments to the recipe.
"So, what if, instead of thinking about solving your whole life, you just think about adding additional good things. One at a time. Just let your pile of good things grow." - Rainbow Rowell
I'm Kerry and I was diagnosed with chronic Lyme disease in 2016. This is a positive space for those of us coping with Lyme disease and other invisible illnesses.